Not a Lost Cause

Why do you think taht you are a lost cause. I man dosen't my faith in you mean anything? ANYTHING? Dosen't the love that your nani and nana have for you mean anything? What do you think that they would say when they hear the way that you talk about and the way that you call yourself a hopeless cause?
God dammit girl you are not a hopeless cause, you are not! I did not liek someone is s hopeless cause. It hurts me when you talk like this. And then to top it off you say that I need India, badly. I know that your nani is not well and you want to see her one last time and hear those beautiful words "I LOVE YOU". But do you have to make it feel as if tehre is absolutely nothing here for you? Am I nothing to you whatsoever?
Yes I am scared when you leave, Bloody damn scared! Not because your leaving the country but because you will forget me and I will question our relationship. Question it hard. I mean it is not everyday that you meet someone you care immensely for. You don't meet them everyday and they certainly are not everywhere.
God Knows why I care for you, he really knows.
And what even bothers me more is why you tell me to stop. You said to stop because you have nothing to give back to me in return and I know that is not true. Why do I feel as if I am just another obstacle in your life? WHY??????
I know that I am not but I feel as though sometimes you do not even care for me and that all you wake up every morning just hoping to see a ticket on your desk and then flying away immediately. What a thing to live for eh, what a thing to live for...amazing. I mean i know how much it means to you and it should. But....but what?
You being my friend is all that matters, I know that I am fucked up person who gets hurt but that's me.
Fuck girl I live for those long ass nights and those billion phonecalls
I LOVE IT
I am so tired and I have no idea if this maakes any sense but yea
your welcome hun your welcome

jaister